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My life has taken such dramatic turns in the past six months. I never thought in a million years that life would change so much for me. Am I happy with the changes that have been made? To be honest with you, at first I was scared i'm not going to lie. Change is a terrifying thing to me, as I am sure it is to a lot of people. If there was one thing that I realized in the past couple years is that I can handle everything and anything that life seems to want to throw at me. Have no idea what i'm talking about? Well let me give you a little background on my life and what has led me to be a divorced 20 year old man living with one of the most amazing men I have ever met in my life.
It is hard sometimes admiting to the people in your life that your gay. Especially to your parents whom think you are the perfect child and think that you will grow up to marry and give them grandkids. Of course the minute I came out to my parents, my father disowned me and kicked me out of our family house. My mother, whom I love more then life itself, couldn't do anything about it because she was in a lot of fear of the man she married. I should back up a step, i'm also a broadway actor. My father is a famous producer in New York City for broadway shows, though I never took any of the perks of that. I worked for EVERY show that I was placed in. Every single one. So, when my father kicked me out, I had to work even hard because he was making some things impossible. I ended up living in a small one room apartment where most of the times things never worked. It was all I could afford on the money I was making from the small shows I could get. Most times I had a ten dollar a week food budget. My apartment was cold in winter and too hot in the summer. The lock on the door hardly worked, but I was happy. About a year after I moved in I was able to get contact with my Grandma, my fathers mother, whom I adored more then life itself. She had somehow heard about where I was living and she suprised me with an apartment. A beautiful condo which so happened to be right next to my best friend at the time. I thought it was perfect and amazing and couldn't wait till the end of that month to move into it. It was before that that I met a man named Seven Daniels. He basically took me under his wing and made me his project of sorts. He wanted to turn my life around, he wanted to make me happy and have the life that he had. I was happy. We got married in October 2008 and bought a house, a chateau in France. We were living this high life, this life that I had always dreamed of having but could never have. He gave me all that. Gave me back the life I had when I was with my family. He even enabled me to get back in contact with my mother and little sister. However, money can not buy anyone happiness. I wasn't 100% happy I came to find out. I lost a lot of friends when I was with him. I lost a piece of me when I was with him. I miss the way things used to be a lot of times and I missed the people I had lost. I was also extremely tired of being gay bashed. There were so many times that people hated on me for just being me. I got beaten up, tripped off stage with a broken leg and arm. I made it through so much and because of everything I find I am stronger.
Seven and I ended up getting divorced. I moved back to New York, because we had moved to LA for a short period of time. He figured that if he took me away from distractions that I would be happy with him again. It didn't work and we went our seperate ways. I took my cats, Lestat and Akasha back to New York and left him with our two dogs and everything else. I did get, from what my lawyer got me, a nice settlement because of the fact Seven had agreed to take care of me for the rest of my life. So, I repurchased the apartment that my Grandma had bought for me. Might I add that Seven had purchased the one below me and we had made it into a two story apartment. I had it back. It was the one place that I completely enjoyed myself in. It was after I moved back in that I was able to think straight and reconnect with someone whom I had missed more then anything. His name was Jason, or as most people called him Jace. I was his spider monkey. Seeing him again in a coffee shop, I couldn't help but feel complete. Everything feel back into place. All our past mistakes (more so mine) were forgiven and we moved forward. Moved onto one of the most amazing and beautiful things that I have ever had in my life. I have love. I have what I have been so desperately searching for all my life. I have someone who loves me for me. Someone who just makes me feel like I am floating on cloud nine.
My theatre career was starting to flurish back into place, I was happy. He moved in with me. We were sharing some of the most amazing times of our life together. Then he did the unthinkable, during the opening night of my new show he somehow managed to get the producer to allow him on stage and during one the the whole cast numbers he got down on one knee and proposed to me. I was happy. Having been married once already, I wasn't sure I was ready for a second time around. However, it just felt right. You know when you have this feeling come over you where everything just feels right? That was how I felt in that exact moment. We aren't rushing anything, we have no need to. Things are great the way they are at this moment. Why would I want to rush anything. We have no need to rush. No need to press forward at a quick rate. This is my forever and when you have forever things need to be taken a step at a time.
This move to Chicago is a great chance for both of us. A great chance for us to start a new life together. I've been forunate to land a job at one of the most amazing theatres here in Chicago and am starting to get my feet back under me in Theatre. I adore it here in Chicago. I adore every last thing about it. Most of all I adore our perfect little condo, with my perfect fiance.
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